Altar
She bought it online on a whim,
The one bulky item I insisted on keeping.
A glass topped wooden table,
Delicate mosaic tiles encased underneath.
I’ve filled it full of rocks from far away beaches,
Pigeon feathers tied up with kestrels,
No less beautiful for being grey.
Statues of Aphrodite, Thoth and Bast,
Ready to be consulted on matters of cosmic importance.
Object by object I add to her temple.
My crystals,
My essentials oils,
My witching tools,
My “hippie nonsense”
I keep this space sacred.
Remember all she taught me about bigger picture love,
The sound of the universe throbbing in my heart.
There’s no superstition in this ritual,
It makes perfect sense to me,
Keeping the mind out of what it can’t comprehend.
This absolute present moment,
This honouring of ancient nature,
Among the thick grey carpet and the whirring radiator.
This temple gleams with all the ground's colour,
Takes me out of time into an older world,
When talismans were found in the dirt rather than scrolled down,
And we knew how to respect death.
A piece of coral she found in the desert in Egypt,
A non descript stone I plucked from the Fairy Pools on the Isle of Skye,
After asking permission.
A note she wrote for me in a women’s workshop,
“I wish you true friendship, true love, prosperity”
These are the treasures you can throw in when I burn.
The rest of the house only spews her absence back at me,
Tells you nothing about our shared passions.
The rest of the house can gather dust,
And go to hell.
Lorna Meehan lives in Birmingham and has been on the national performance poetry scene for many years. She has headlined various acclaimed nights such as Hit the Ode and Jawdance, toured with Apples and Snakes and performed at festivals like Glastonbury, Ledbury, Shambala and Moseley Folk. She starred in performance poetry theatre show News of the Word directed by Giovanni ‘Spoz’ Esposito, who she later collaborated with on Ten Letters, an intergenerational poetry show about Birmingham and was part of the Decadent Diva’s and the New October Poets collectives. She has autobiographical spoken word solo shows under her belt and her debut collection Caterpillar Soup is coming out in March with Verve Poetry Press.