Pillow Talk
You, Divine Spark, come sit next to me. Better yet, sit here on my lap and let me stroke your hair. I have a story to share with you, Beloved. A wild, wicked, wonderful story that blossoms from my heart and wishes to be told.
Come, will you please be the open ears that receive this melody, the vessel that glories in the telling and the chalice that holds space for this unfolding? I feel the tale wishes to be told, but it will not rise without your willing presence to catch the chronicle.
Yes, Beloved! Yes, of course. I bring my ears, guided from the center of my Heart, eager to be nourished by the messages of your song. Sing your praises, your harmonies, your divinity into the empty bowl of my body, ripe for receiving. I lie, rest across the basin of your lap, and now I am ready to listen, take in, imbibe your gifts.
Beloved, Angel of the day and Goddess of the night, without you I am but ideas on the wind. You anchor me. Sustenance to my reverie, substance to my formlessness.
Once, and once again, before time began to tick the rhythms of nature, everything was soft, spacious, like cotton warmed by summer’s rays into a vessel of touch. The breadth of Being filled space with breath, quintessence, expanse. Here, in the land before the metered measure of time, I know myself as everything. Here, in this land, I feel myself as everything. Your sultry lips, a shadow in the future, hold a quiet space: the wavering of trees, a wisp of possibility, fills a vastness. I know how trees and lips will dance one day through the exchange of life. I feel this the way you feel wind on your bare skin receiving my divine kiss even now, a lingering brush.
In this untangled moment, measured before time, only the audible hum of my love for you fills the void. I know this sinuous vibration across the field-of-Being, lingering in this sonorous cadence the way you lie in the grass to be licked by light and caressed by green stalks of life. From this surrender to my own luminous light, from this luxuriating window into the magic of being, from here comes the sultry wind. From here comes the blanketing sky. From here comes the music of the birds, a serenade tuned just for you—for you as me, tuned to the resonance of my Being-sound across the expanse, a drape of glory creating from the emptiness whatever arises from this tickled place where my pulsating emergence reveals you. I am you.
Come, my love, make this story anew with me. Let me twirl you onto the mountain tops and dance samba with your warm body. Let me unfold eternity from the ripeness of your ever-giving hips. Let us create anew.
Beloved, Angel of the heavens creating here on Earth, I am your playground. Paint me pretty pictures, paint me in colors that have no names as they spill forth from your endless well. I hear your story of love and raise my skirt to chassé with your colorful creations. The world is our stage. With each pirouette through my body, I send the harmonies of your love into the air. She shutters and stills. She bucks and quiets. She unfolds. Through me, you have unleashed yourself as me, tornadoes of vibrancy enveloping the magic of Being, revealing the wonder of existence. I am your pawn, you are my master. And I am your master, you are my pawn. Together we are. Apart we are not. There is no dance of separation, only the wild cacophony of our unified, orgasmic delight revealing the heavens everywhere.
I take each step alight in the beauty of the tempo of this breath, this heartbeat. You tap the rhythm of soul into the ethers, and I must move, must sway, must lose myself in the thunderous outpouring of this decadence. Call me anytime, Beloved, to dance your Heart into being. Play me like a violin, crafted by wind and sea to resonate the perfection of life from the curves of my wooden bones in harmony with your song. Pluck my chords, amplify my beauty, unhinge our glory into the cadence of being. I dignify your longing and birth your reverie.
Cit Ananda’s poetry is inspired by direct experience, captured in moments between perception when the mind falls quiet and deep silence shares an offering that touches the mystery of life. She will tell you she catches poetry on the winds of the universe. She has had work published or forthcoming in The Mountain Path, Tiferet Journal, Offerings: A Spiritual Poetry Anthology, El Portal, Medicine and Meaning, and Tiny Seed Journal. She is also the author of When Silence Speaks: Messages from the Heart, a full-length poetry book. Explore more at https://www.beingcitananda.com/publications.