It Has Always Been Yours
There are women across those hills,
desert women, a mess of shining.
Flesh hotter than coals, the
scent of bodies most earthly.
I hear they make fire when they
dance.
Good men do not travel beyond those hills,
the edge of this, the land of my father,
the end of the world.
We don’t dance.
Certainly, no one ever danced for me.
Each morning, the same dream.
Foggy valleys full of wine, a face like a door,
giving itself to my probing, speaking a foreign tongue
saying, “I see you, good son, keeper of crops, bringer of gold”
I drape the carpet of duty
once more across the cave of my body.
Today, we will count the sheep. I will tend
my father’s barley. I will make the meager
gifts suffice.
I will present it all. And then, perhaps, a
fatted calf for me, a moment to salve the bruise
of being. It is only fair.
What is love that is not fair?
I stretch blameless limbs to earning
in the long shadows of every morning.
Every morning, I fear a familiar stranger
bearing in his guilty arms injustice, running toward home,
crying “father”.
Dean Abbott is a writer, poet and pastoral counselor living in Kentucky. He can be contacted through http://www.deanabbott.com or on X @deanabbott.
