Conductor
Sometimes I sit beside my golden son
as he bathes, god of the sudsy sea,
admiral of the milk jug boats.
He seems to feel the most operative here–
maybe even the most effusive–
but he will never allow me to play
with his moldering bath toys or
splash him with supportive water,
no matter how many fevered giggles
he ejects my way, how many of his
raving smiles I snare. Still, we perch together
for a fishline of epitomized magnitude,
operating untogether but never far apart.
The backyard pool comes alive in May,
where I stand my son up on my feet
and take him for a Cajun waltz
along the strongbox shallows.
He will spend many buoyant hours
crawling up and down the vinyl steps,
chasing a life raft around the redwood deck.
With a euphoric “Jump! Jump!”,
I leap into intrinsic action, bouncing him
up and down in the whisking water
as he shrieks up a storm of spirea.
Our peak adventures are on the coquina beach,
where the emerald ocean exhales flustered surf.
The scalding driftwood sand burns our hungry heels,
so I take his curt hand and we run for the brink of shore.
He races down the unfolding joyful sand,
mosaic sealight flickering with sunup against
my wide-brimmed black oak tortoise shades,
shielding stabs of scurvy grief from God’s audit.
Megan Denese Mealor echoes and erases in her native land of Jacksonville, Florida. Nominated three times for the Pushcart Prize, and a 2023 Best of the Net candidate, her writing has been featured in hundreds of literary journals worldwide. Megan has authored five poetry collections: Bipolar Lexicon (Unsolicited Press); Blatherskite (Clare Songbirds); A Mourning Dove’s Wishbone (Cyberwit.net, 2022); A Cat May Look Like a King (Dancing Girl Press, Summer 2026); and Coals to Newcastle (Cyberwit.net, 2027).
