Ambition – An Interview

Ambition –  An Interview

What is your great ambition?
Immortal fame. To write the best poems ever.
And when you realized
that was unrealistic?
That never
happened. I just toned it down.
Submitted everywhere. Took part
in competitions. To this day,
every rejection breaks my heart.

What was your first ambition?
To be a saint. My model was Teresa
of Avila. And when you realized
that was unrealistic?
At Easter
I think of it. But holiness
must be an accident, like sin.
There are such beautiful temptations,
and bliss in giving in.

Gail White is a formalist poet, contributing editor to Light Poetry Magazine, cat lover, long-time resident of South Louisiana. Laissez les bon temps rouler!

Grace – a poem by Stephen Lefebure

Grace

Listen to the nothing. You can hear it
In between your heartbeats for so long
That your lungs have centuries to rest.
Understand your death and do not fear it.
Dying is the moment in a song
When the singer has to fill his breast
And a note is waiting. To appear, it
Finds the pitch where feeling will belong.
Where it lands, its frequency, is best
Sung an octave higher than your Spirit.
Listen to the nothing. It is strong
In the blessing given to the blessed.

Poetry by Stephen Lefebure may be found in his own volume, Rocks Full of Sky, and in Wild Song – Poems of the Natural World and Going Down Grand: Poems from the Canyon, two anthologies of nature poetry. His work may also be found in journals like Wilderness, The Literary Review, Chicago Studies, Weber Review, Bombay Review, Carmina Magazine, and Bangalore Review. He lives in Evergreen, Colorado, USA.

Lake Loon – a poem by Marso

Lake Loon

Unsteadily I step onto a dock
where I tie my boat—

stranded ashore.

The darkening lake
mirrors the rising moon,
mysterious and out of reach—
deep sky waters
that curate memories.

A loon calls—

Why do we hear it as mournful?
Perhaps we imagine it
giving voice to our own—
our silence—
a silent gliding
like the loon,
lone upon the watery sky-mirror,
belying a paddling swirl beneath.

Marso writes poetry shaped by years of living within different cultures and by a practice of close attention to ordinary life.

Self-portrait with Sharpening Tool – a poem by David Hanlon

Self-portrait with Sharpening Tool

Am I sculpting this poem to death,
chiselling my life to erosion?
blue chalk streaking lined palms.
A sentence cleaved into one spare image,
last slow breath rolling over the riverbank —
grit in the teeth, the stone worn thin.
Crystalline or pared to fleshless bone?
Simple — or simply less?
I want to embody memory, be more
of all I am left of —
edges worn clean,
limbs tracing air,
fresh breath in tiny sails.

David Hanlon is a poet based in Cardiff, Wales. His work appears in numerous magazines and journals, including Rust & Moth, Anthropocene and trampset. His latest collection, Dawn’s Incision, was published by Icefloe Press. You can follow him on Twitter @davidhanlon13 and Instagram @hanlon6944.

The Rain-Caller’s Hands – a story by Samuel Kozah

The Rain-Caller’s Hands

The bowl sat in the shade of the compound wall. Clay, old, the rim darkened where hands held it. The water held still. Afternoon light fell flat and white across the compound floor, the red dust, the yam rows behind the fence where the furrows ran pale and cracked.

Third year. The women of the village no longer spoke about the harvest with urgency; their talk had settled into practical management.

Nkwatyak came out from the doorway and lowered himself onto the stool. The generator at Gashi’s shop two compounds east put a low drone across the heat. The rooster at the back of the compound crowed once, wrong hour, and stopped. Three plots over, a child’s voice rose and cut off.

His eyes held the road past the entrance.

His hands rested in his lap, the palms curved slightly upward, calluses from two decades of yam-work thick across the upper palms. His posture tipped forward from the waist toward the ground. His thumb pressed briefly to the inside of his left wrist and released.

The storage room at the compound’s back carried a gap in the zinc roof where two bolts rusted through. In the rains, water came through in a thin stream and struck the floor with a sound between a drip and a pour. The zinc sat silent now.

A woman passed the entrance carrying a jerry can on her head, the pace of someone for whom the weight was familiar. A boy appeared at the entrance behind her. Nine or ten, the leanness of the third year settled in his frame. He stood looking in at nothing. After a moment he moved on.

The mineral smell of water sitting in clay reached the stool once, faint. The air settled flat again.

From the direction of the church, the afternoon service pressed on the air, more collective breath than music, and the wind shifted and took it. The road past the entrance settled.

The water in the bowl held still.

*

The generator at Gashi’s shop was off. The church sat dark across the village. A different stillness held the compound, and Nkwatyak was still on the stool when Gwanzang came through the entrance.

His son’s sandals were chalked with road dust. He sat on the second stool without speaking. They faced the open dark past the compound wall. The village had gone to its night-quiet. A dog barked once from the far end and stopped. Gwanzang held his phone in both hands, the screen off, his thumbs resting loose against it.

A lantern moved along the road beyond the wall and disappeared between two houses. Two houses along, a woman called out.

Past the compound wall, a cricket called once and went still. Somewhere in the village, a door closed.

Minutes passed; Gwanzang shifted his grip on the phone, the screen staying off. The rooster at the back of the compound settled on its perch and the dark absorbed the sound of it.

Gwanzang said, his voice low: “Baba.” A breath. “What is the name of the rain, before it comes?”

The mineral smell of the water reached them once, faint, and the night air took it.

Nkwatyak rose and went inside. The bowl came back with him. When he bent to set it outside the door, the cord around his neck swung free of his shirt, a worn cross catching the dark for a moment, and settled back as he straightened. He sat.

Gwanzang’s eyes stayed on his father. After a long while he stood and pressed the phone into his pocket. He looked at his father once, briefly.

“Ka naan, Baba.”

He walked to the compound entrance and through it. One step onto the road, he stopped. Around him the village sat dark and still. He kept walking. His footsteps went down the road and were gone.

Nkwatyak stayed where he sat.

The bowl sat where he placed it. In the dark the water was invisible, present only as a mineral smell the night air carried briefly.

*

Morning came at the doorway, the thin dry-season gray, cooler and flatter than the day ahead. Nkwatyak’s eyes were reddened at the rims. He rose and came out.

The bowl sat where he left it.

Morning sounds held the compound: a woman’s voice two compounds over, indistinct; the generator at Gashi’s shop still off.

Nkwatyak settled onto the stool. His hands rested in his lap, the palms curved slightly upward, the fingers loose.

The morning deepened. Women moved along the road with jerry cans for the well two streets over. A truck passed on the far road toward Kafanchan, its sound falling away. The Kagoro Hills sat low in the morning haze to the north, pale and unchanged. On the road between the compound and the hills, two cows moved at their own pace, their shadows flat beside them.

He looked once to the hills. The road between the compound and the hills held nothing. Somewhere east, a child called and another answered and both went quiet.

The compound had its smaller sounds. A brief wind moved the storage room door, and the dry fence wire creaked once and settled.

Two plots east, a woman scattered grain for the chickens, her arm moving in the flat morning light.

An old woman came along the road toward the well, moving at her own pace. She passed the compound entrance. Her head stayed level, and her eyes held on Nkwatyak for two, three seconds before her stride carried her past. He watched until she turned at the path to the well and was gone.

A fly landed on the rim of the bowl and left. The road held its quiet after she passed.

The generator at Gashi’s shop started, and the rooster crowed at a different wrong hour and fell silent.

Midday came. The road past the entrance went quiet, shade covering the compound walls. The compound floor held the full heat of the day, the dust too dry to lift, and the generator ran on.

From the direction of Gwanzang’s church a hymn traveled on the air. One phrase, maybe two, then the wind took it. Nkwatyak did not turn his head.

The bowl sat. The water dropped a finger’s width, the waterline leaving a faint pale ring on the clay. A wasp circled the rim twice and flew off into the white afternoon.

The road past the entrance held its midday quiet. A man passed leading a goat on a short rope, neither of them moving with urgency. The goat’s hooves on the packed earth and gone.

A brief wind moved through the compound, lifting a small spiral of dust from near the center of the floor and setting it down. The bowl held its water. Two children passed on the road beyond the wall, their voices carrying into the compound.

A woman carrying firewood passed the entrance, her companion beside her, the two of them talking. Their voices went past and faded. Nkwatyak watched the road for a moment after they passed. Grain pounded somewhere east, two strokes and a rest, steady.

The compound held the afternoon. The generator ran. The church across the village made no sound at this hour. The fence wire settled along the back wall where the wind had moved it earlier, and did not move again.

The fingers of his right hand extended slightly against the fabric of his trousers. His palm turned upward. The fingers opened a degree. It stopped.

The rooster crowed a third time, distant.

Nkwatyak’s hand closed and settled flat against his thigh.

The sky held empty. The light stayed flat, the shadows stayed short, and across the village the church held its quiet. The Kagoro Hills sat at their distance, their color the color of the dust. A kite circled above them, barely visible. A child’s voice lifted briefly from somewhere east and went quiet. The yam rows caught no shade at this hour, their empty furrows the same pale red-brown from the entrance to the fence line.

On the far road, a truck headed back toward Kafanchan, its sound smaller going than it had been coming.

Evening came. The light shifted to something with less heat in it, the white of the afternoon going cooler along the compound wall.

The hills held still. On the road past the entrance, the last foot traffic of the day moved and was gone.

The old woman returned from the well, her bucket full, moving back along the road. Her eyes stayed on the road.

Both of Nkwatyak’s hands rested flat on his thighs, palms down, fingers still.

The water sat lower still, the pale ring on the clay wider now.

*

The generator at Gashi’s shop started again, and Nkwatyak rose from the stool and went inside.

The room held dark. An ache ran along his lower spine. He sat on the mat with his back against the wall. Voices from the road reached him briefly and were gone.

His hands rested in his lap, the room holding the day’s heat.

Rain came. The zinc roof reported it first, the compound floor outside the door a moment behind. The road went from dry sound to wet.

From the back of the compound, water through the gap in the zinc of the storage room, finding the floor.

Nkwatyak sat in the dark, his hands still.

A sound between a drip and a pour.

Samuel Kozah is a pharmacist and writer from Kaduna, Nigeria. His work has appeared in Brittle Paper. He is interested in the small disobediences of ordinary life, the things that continue when they should have stopped, the people who remain when they should have gone.

What Love Makes – a poem by Johanna Caton, O.S.B.

Caravaggio, Rest on the Flight into Egypt, 1597, Doria Pamphilj Gallery, Rome


What Love Makes


Joseph, the only human awake, his hands
all work-chaffed, lifts an ache called music,
longs, while weary eyes lock on a heaven
that’s open without knocking, that plies the bow

and plays as fragrance plays. Beguiled, his hair
and the donkey cheek unite, he’s dazed by need
and gazing, as mother and child embrace, lose
their bones in sleep. Here’s the moment

the artist could not resist. Joseph’s feet, curled
like sleeping kittens next to the angel’s ballet
pose, tell of the cost and dearness of surrender—
even its laugh. Yes, laugh, you serious ones: see

the angel’s hair: an up-do that hasn’t quite landed,
he’s just come, his molecules barely assembled,
strategic scarf scarcely there.

See what love does to the bodies it requires,
how it cups the unknown
in its chalice.

Johanna Caton, O.S.B, is a Benedictine nun of Minster Abbey, in Kent, England. Her poems have appeared in The Christian Century, St Austin Review, Ekphrastic Review, Amethyst Review, One Art, Today’s American Catholic, Fathom, Fare Forward, Windhover, The Catholic Poetry Room, and other publications. She is a Pushcart Prize nominee.

The Face of God – prose poetry by Thomas R. Smith

The Face of God

He stood, a short, slightly heavy dark-haired man, on the curb of the freeway exit onto the suburban commercial strip, his body hunched around something bulging his coat in the March wind.  I couldn’t read the cardboard sign, but his message was clear.  It was hard to switch lanes, though I saw someone ahead of us better positioned to attend him swerve over.

Stopped at the light, the left lane open, I fumbled the only bill I had in my pocket, rolled down the window.  It wasn’t much, but it would buy him a meal.  It was then that I saw the small black-and-white dog wrapped close to his chest.

The man was neither young nor old.  I don’t remember his features, saw him only long enough to hand him the ten and exchange God-bless-you’s.  Do you remember the way when Robin Williams smiled a kind of transcendent surrender seemed to overflow his eyes (think Fisher King), planting you right there in the holy ground of the human?

The man walked back to kneel on blankets spread on the concrete and appeared to be comforting the dog, talking to it.  Krista noticed him blowing on his bare hands.  That’s when I flung open the door and tossed him my mitts.

The light turned.  I don’t know what the man saw, or his shivering short-haired friend, looking at me through the window, but I had seared my vision on the face of God.  I thought of the money I’d just spent on clothes in the city and for the first time believed I knew why some few rumored souls give away all they own and from then on have no purpose except to relieve the suffering of others and keep that face before their eyes.

Thomas R. Smith is a poet living in western Wisconsin. He has recently edited a collection of Robert Bly’s essays on poetry, The Garden Entrusted to Me. His new poetry collection Heaven and Nature is forthcoming from Nodin Press. He posts poems and essays at thomasrsmithpoet.com.

Just Maybe – a poem by Karlene Keskinen

Just Maybe


Commonsense
insists it's so:
we are born,
we live,
we die.
Making space for another.

Full stop.

But somewhere,
just maybe,
there might
be a box. (Carved
of charred bone?
Lined with the brindled
fur of a mouse?)


And something more
dwells in the box.

Maybe, at last when I die,
I'll know the weight
of the box on my chest.
(Maybe the box was there all along,
but invisible, weightless.)


And maybe the lid
will lift with ease—

and then my two hands
will dart from my wrists,
startled, like sparrows—

my heart will leap like a lover
into Your embrace.

Karlene Keskinen lives and works in Santa Barbara, California. A novelist by trade, she writes noir mysteries as Karen Keskinen. Keskinen makes a poem when, as WC Williams puts it, there is “no other fit medium.”

Come to Life – a poem by Barbara Lydecker Crane

Come to Life
Corn Stooks, an oil painting by Nikolai Astrup, 1920 (Norway)

The oldest of fourteen,
I was asthmatic, often sick in bed
in our house beside the church. My father,
the pastor, forbid our joining the revelry outdoors
on Summer Solstice night. I longed to sing
and dance with the others, celebrating
the sun and the greening earth.

Summer made my health
a good bit better, and I liked to walk
and sketch after prayers and chores were done.
I’d watch the farmers pick and bundle cornstalks
into towers about as tall as me. The stooks,
left to cure and dry, looked almost
human to my young eyes.

Today, as they bend
in the chilly wind, I paint them
troll-like, plodding across a field under
a darkening sky. Do you smile or do you shiver?
And do you wonder if there’s a soul or spirit
in every earthly form? In the rustling
of stooks, I can hear it.


Barbara Lydecker Crane has won the Kim Bridgford Memorial Sonnet Crown Contest, the Helen Schaible Sonnet Contest, and has twice been a Finalist for the Rattle Poetry Prize, among other honors and awards. She has published five collections, including You Will Remember Me (Able Muse) and Art & Soul (Kelsay Books). She lives with her husband near Boston.