Asis
Asis wants my earrings—
Miss Pooja, I like your earrings,
They are so soft. Can I have one?
In my mind, I take them off
And place them in her palm
Right then and there—
With that innocent voice,
I would have plucked out my eyes, to be fair—
I just worry it will cause a fight,
Since Aditi also said she liked them.
I laugh it off and give them both a
Squeeze before I leave.
As I reverse the car, I catch the
Tear-shaped orbs in my ears swinging
In the mirror and regret not thinking
To give each of them
One to keep.
When I had walked into the classroom,
Aditi had asked me,
Miss Pooja, why do you wear those earrings?
She was persistent, too, she asked a few times
I thought it a curious question—
Not where are they from, or
Were they a gift,
But why do you wear them at all?
I have always known God spoke
Through children,
I wonder why He has asked me this
I mean, I ask myself why a lot—
Why do I pray, why do I exist,
But I have never asked myself
Why I wear earrings…
Is it so important?
I guess it is that
They remind me of Him—
The swimming turquoise circles with
The red dot in the center,
Like sindoor on His serene forehead,
A point of calm in the cosmic ocean
Rain slams my dashboard,
I am distracted
It is curious the children
Have caught on,
That they are just as drawn
To the symbol
There is some magic in
These things, I swear
They have garnered more compliments
Than any other article of clothing
In my closet, and
Every time I start to get
A little too attached
To them, one mysteriously disappears,
Turning up about a week later—
Stuck in the folds of a skirt,
My braid, my shower cap,
Somewhere
Never deserting me completely,
Just reminding me why I wear them
Of course, I cannot wear just one,
The other would be incomplete
Without its pair—
Shiva and Shakti,
Destruction and creation,
Renunciation and passion.
Honestly,
I have felt distant from God lately, and
Every time this happens, I wonder
If this is the time He has run down the drain,
The time I will not find Him again.
But every time, He finds me
In my hemline, the shower, the twists of my hair
And it turns out,
He was always in my house, right there,
Playing hide-and-go-seek,
Reminding me
It is silly to wear one earring
Without the other, but that I should
Never be too attached to either
I cannot peel little Asis’s smile
Out of my mind, I cannot
Shake the thought that,
Had she grinned a little wider, I would have
Glimpsed the universe inside her.
Asis said my earrings were soft—
They are stone, I would never have
Thought to use that word to describe them
I am as My servant thinks I am
I remember her arms refusing to let me go,
Settling so gently around me,
They felt like like snow—
I know
He has found me again.
Pooja Muthuraj (she/her) is a Master’s in Business Analytics candidate (’26) at the College of William and Mary and the editor of Religion of Love Journal (religionoflovejournal.com). She has let poetry write her for as long as she can remember, with recent work published in Last Leaves Magazine, Hedge Apple Magazine, Furrow Magazine, Rainy Weather Days, The Shallot, Noetica, and The Gallery. She was a finalist for the 2025 Goronwy Owen Prize in Poetry, and her first chapbook, “18, Whatever that Means,” was published in 2023 by BookLeaf Publishing. You can follow her on Threads @paadi_padutthuraval, where she occasionally shares work.
