The Afterlife of Riley
Sleet slashes my window with
the undersound of faraway voices.
I watch the twisting
flames in my woodstove,
hypnotic, like dancers
telling ancient stories
in the season of longnights.
It’s a good woodstove.
It keeps me warm even when
the cold emanates from within.
Soot forms on the glass of the window in the door
if a log is set too close, releasing shapes
hidden in the sap, remnants of forest and earth and high breezes.
What appears to me now is the shape
of my old dog Riley, buried just a season past.
Not some vague suggestion.
Not a toasted-cheese-Jesus Riley.
But Riley, snoozing in the soot-stained glass
of the woodstove as he had at my feet
on so many murky nights.
It’s him, alright.
I know it in the egg-shaped hump
of his body low in the front, high in the rump,
smoky haunches pulled up,
the protective curl of his tail,
even the furrowed brow
that worried his face so in life,
now resin stained into the glass.
Behind his half-opened eyes,
at rest but still watching, as he often did,
carnelian embers glow in his pupils.
He has become knowing, like the eyes
I’ve seen in photographs of the saints –
Thérèse of Lisieux, she of the Little Way,
José Sánchez del Río, boy rebel and martyr,
Gemma of Galgani, Hollywood beautiful
pained by the stigmata.
And my Riley who was just a good boy.
Eyes, all of them, that saw beyond the veil
and burned with a holy fire
they, in their young lives,
and Riley after death, in this winter gloom
when the veil is thin and spirits dance in the fire.
A long while I ponder his image,
Riley peering back at me from the fire, gaze for gaze.
Clearly, he is not going back tonight
to his dark bed beneath the pines,
so I leave him three potato chips
where his dish had been.
And no, I’m not surprised to find them when I wake.
Dogs who run with the Saints have no more need of chips.
The spirit of offering has left them.
They are only potato chips now.
I eat them myself, trusting he received
their salty, crunchy welcome.
Gregory Lobas is the author of Left of Center (Broadkill River Press, 2022) which won the Dogfish Head Poetry Prize. His work has appeared in numerous journals and anthologies, such as Thin Places & Sacred Spaces, Tar River Poetry, Cimarron Review, Vox Populi, Susurrus, and many others. He is a retired firefighter/paramedic living with his wife Meg and dog Sophie in the Hurricane Helene-ravaged area of western North Carolina
