Letter to a desert mother
Theodora, I know so little about your life, and you
haven’t heard of mine, lodged in this unthinkable future.
You sleep on a coarse mat with sheepskin for cover, own
two clay jars for water and oil, a lamp casting shadowy light.
My soft-cushioned life is the kind you escaped from.
Brightness in my home is dimmed at a touch. While you wash
your own clothes, I have a metal box that performs that task.
Entertainment winds around my days, noise grips them firmly.
Discarding linens finely beaded, you wear a rough tunic,
dress as a man to avoid unwanted attention.
I’m comfortable lounging in jeans, nevertheless
own more than one dress and coat.
You’re tired of men who wield power, live to excess.
That world is also familiar to me, so I vote, sign petitions.
Yet I know large gestures are not the answer, it’s cutting
my own excesses— a new jumper, endless cups of coffee,
hoarding books — that will change how I view the world,
allow me to walk gently on our fragile planet.
This is why, sometimes, I feel the need to meet with you
in your desert-solitude, sink into layers of silence
where we circle our deepest hopes, then face our reality—
you weaving mats, me mopping the kitchen floor.
In about the fourth century, groups of men and women moved out into the desert to live a different kind of life. The desert fathers are remembered, the desert mothers mostly forgotten.
Yvonne Baker’s debut poetry pamphlet, Tree Light, was a winner in the Cinnamon Pamphlet Prize 2022 and her debut collection, Love Haunts in Shades of Blue, won the Cinnamon Literature Prize and The Rubery Book Award for best poetry collection 2025. Her other collections with Cinnamon Press are Light Still, Light Turning and Backwards forwards across the sea. Her pamphlet Becoming Wetland will be published in 2026.