My Spiritual Practice
It is practice, the going again and again
through the heavy double doors and along
the polished wooden pews, the week’s program
in my hand, the list of hymns and verses ready
for the faithful and the struggling, the ones like me
who repeat the prayers silently but with my lips
in motion. It is practice, the discipline
of repetition, the dumb fingers climbing the scale,
rehearsing the tricky cross over, making time
to serve the melody, making the body serve
the will, and training the spirit when the spirit
no longer feels the flame of faith. It is practice,
the familiar, the regular, the repeated
that will keep the spirit afloat assures the priest,
agrees the therapist, the bright orange vest you wear
to sustain you through the rapids and buoy you
in the deepest waters, the keel of the life boat
where you cling even after belief has capsized.
It is practice, not perfection, not mastery,
that winches me out of my despair following
her loss, the winding rope of dailiness, the meals
with awkward friends, the re-filling of bird feeders
each morning, the dogged breaking up of concrete
and hauling of debris, the work down on my knees
to level flagstones, the Wednesday morning doughnut
rendezvous, the Sundays inside the heavy doors,
under high ceilings, arches, and the rhythmic words
that I heard again and again that hold me here.
Cecil Morris retired after 37 years of teaching high school English, and now he tries writing himself what he spent so many years teaching others to understand and (maybe) enjoy. He has had a handful of poems published in Cimarron Review, English Journal, The Ekphrastic Review, Hole in the Head Review, The Midwest Quarterly, Poem, and other literary magazines.