The Goddess of Remorse It’s full on dark night when the bar of gold light sears across my heart. Coming from nowhere out of nothing right onto me. Coincidence. No meaning in it, a fluke of twisting beams that I can’t track its source. Hand across my chest now, the mark a layer removed: under the strip, my hand’s back and underneath that skin, bones, beating. The life in me, on a night I can’t sleep, anxiety stirring bad memories with its nightmare stick and here I am, marked by light, clothed and naked, part of me bright and honest, part the biggest lie I know. What am I? What is happening here? I am not new news. The voice between time. Seconds tick, my chest thumps to move my blood, The life in me all shadows and bright dreams, all the bustle of day punctuated by the lost and quiet night of this. I want to lift this bar, turn my hand, hold its fire to warm my palm. Instead, I shift, let it spear back into my heart, let the light break me open, burn me alive. You will know my face by its shadows. Time to get the shadows right, let light fall shining wherever it may.
Neile Graham is Canadian by birth and inclination but currently lives in Seattle, Washington. Her publications include: four full-length collections, most recently The Walk She Takes (2019) and a spoken word CD, She Says: Poems Selected & New. She has also published poems in various physical and online magazines, including Lady Churchill’s Rosebud Wristlet, Mad Swirl, and Polar Starlight.
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