God is Nervous Energy – a poem by George Cassidy Payne

God is Nervous Energy

God is salt water,
magnesium and calcium.

At sea level she is the
tide that causes bulges
and depressions in the
surface of oceans.

God is an aquifer.
Water soaks through
her, as do units of water:
hydrogen bonds and molecules
packed like inmates.

God is solid, liquid, and gas.

Her surface tension is more
than the force of any filter.

Solvent. Weathered. Ordered.

Floating around at room temperature.
God has a lot of nervous energy.

 

George Cassidy Payne is a poet from Rochester, New York (U.S.). His work has been included in such publications as the Hazmat Review, MORIA Poetry Journal, Chronogram Magazine,  Allegro Poetry Journal, Kalliope, Ampersand Literary Review, The Angle at St. John Fisher College and 3:16 Journal. George’s blogs, essays and letters have appeared in Nonviolence Magazine, the Fellowship of Reconciliation, Pace e Bene, USA Today, The Wall Street Journal, The Atlantic, the Havana Times, the South China Morning Post, The Buffalo News and more.

The Prey – a short story by Donna Walker-Nixon

The Prey

Dürer never saw a rhinoceros
Based on an Indian’s verbal description
He created wooden plates of body armor.

An old aggressive black rhino attacks the old man who sees his reflection in the bathroom mirror. Like the artist, he has never viewed a rhino, and he repeats, “Put on the whole breastplate of Christ’s armor, so you may be able to stand against the hoary devil’s wiles.”

A boy paid $350,000 to the Safari Club of Dallas. Once that old man could have been that boy, planning one last safari to Leopold’s Dark Continent. Now blood connect-the-dots toilet paper masks nicks on his chin.

A tiger shark once circled him when he lost his balance and fell into crystal blue waters on an Iron-Man John bonding experience he took his son white water rafting in Australia. He winced and pretended to feel no pain from the nine stitches that reattached a patch of his flapping mouth to his body.

Now he must satisfy himself through memories. His acne scars turn pink and red. Coumadin thins his blood to the texture of a bloody Mary.

He hallucinates that the dik-dik over his office toilet has come back to life. Naked he runs to the office, with its statues and heads from a life long past. He fancies himself as Ulysses when he tells Diane he will embark on one more jaunt to allusive rhino. He finds the name of the safari club in the Yellow Pages and still buck naked, he writes a check and snubs out the cunt of his unlit cigar in one of three elephantine ashtrays scattered around the office.

Once he had an executive washroom where he seduced underlings who he enchanted as he sought human prey while associates noted, “Strike another one up for wily Will.” Others fell prey to his demands. One bought a $300 cocktail dress she could not afford. Young teens in his junior high Sunday School at 1stPres also swayed to his demands.

In the inner sanctum of his home office the maid passes over moulting species of stuffed animals from Jurrassic Park II. She told other maids in other homes. For him, one day merged into the next, then the next, and finally all the nexuses he’d ever need.

**

The bitter pill of failure delineated his daddy’s wrinkled chin and turkey neck. He worked long hours at the cotton gin to keep the family treading polluted water. Enough is enough, he told himself, and signed up to be a campus boy at the women’s academy, where with other campus boys he lived at The Shack on the second floor of the carpenter’s shop. He unloaded coal from rail cars, milked cows, and performed duties deemed unacceptable for females.

With most of the other boys, he finished his studies at Baylor and immediately signed up for the army, where he wanted to bring back to life charred remains of Jewish prisoners. He returned from Dachau a war-weary man.

He died, alone nude in his office, tamping an unlit cigar into an elephant foot ashtray while Diane practiced advanced yoga poses. She had no use for his trophies, and for a hefty tax write-off she donated them to his university. Her only dictate: the stuffed creatures remain on display for students to view for fifteen years.

The university placed his prey willy-nilly in a musty classroom in the library, next to the copy machine Mac and Clyde used to print syllabi and other documents. Once a young assistant professor of Romantic poetry brushed against scaly patches where the dik-dik had moulted like a cat with dandruff. She paraphrased Wordworth, “The child becomes the father of the man.”

Donna Walker-Nixon founded Windhover: A Journal of Christian Literature in 1997. She co-edited the Her Texas series with James Ward Lee, and she co-founded The Langdon Review of the Arts in Texas. In 2010, her novel Canaan’s Oothoon was published. And she was the editor of  Her Texas: Story, Image, Poem & Song.

For a Glimpse of the Sea – a poem by M.J. Iuppa

For a Glimpse of the Sea
Scopello, Sicily, 2018

The dish garden named Scopello basks in the sun
of everyday grace, surviving without guarantee

that its accidental pact made of rocks and succulents
and cacti, thorny and green, will claim our snowy

climate as foresight— as if there were no other
possibilities, imagining bliss in its rightful place,

with us standing on the villa’s balcony, looking
out upon the far-flung sea where we stare, and stare

at birds sailing down the terraced hillside in-
to a stand of trees that lists over the cliff’s edge

like a tenderness that never lets go.

 

M.J. Iuppa  is the Director of the Visual and Performing Arts Minor Program and Lecturer in Creative Writing at St. John Fisher College; and since 2000 to present, is a part time lecturer in Creative Writing at The College at Brockport. Since 1986, she has been a teaching artist, working with students, K-12, in Rochester, NY, and surrounding area. Most recently, she was awarded the New York State Chancellor’s Award for Excellence in Adjunct Teaching, 2017. She has four full length poetry collections, This Thirst (Kelsay Books, 2017), Small Worlds Floating (2016) as well as Within Reach (2010) both from Cherry Grove Collections; Night Traveler (Foothills Publishing, 2003); and 5 chapbooks. She lives on a small farm in Hamlin NY.

Propensities – a poem by Sanjeev Sethi

Propensities

Inebriated our inclinations veer towards each other.
Tenderness of your palms softer than any poultice:
what are we burking? We need the outness of others
to quieten ourselves. A gum band has trussed us. We
can pull it any which way. As the world would have
us as its external face. Or, do we follow ourselves?
Army of apprehensions storm my setting. I look
for an equalizer, the dynasty of blue devils hold
their sway. As in other times I seek His assiduities.

Sanjeev Sethi is the author of three books of poetry. His poems are in venues around the world:   A Restricted View From Under The Hedge, Pantry Ink, Bonnie’s Crew, Morphrog 16, Mad Swirl, The Penwood Review, Faith Hope & Fiction, Communion Arts Journal, and elsewhere. He lives in Mumbai, India.

 

 

Sneeze – a poem by Steve Straight

Sneeze

Twenty-five strangers shift uneasily in their chairs
on the first day of class in this community college.
I see by their faces and the list of names
that they represent the world:
Sadejah, Jevaughn, Sandra, Pavelon, Jack––
collected in this time and place by fate––
Mona, Shaneiqua, Katya, Nydia, Tatiana, Spencer.
I too am nervous, as always, about the beginning.

Then suddenly from the hush a tremendous sneeze!
Chuckles about its size, then six or seven say at once
to a person they’ve never met before
Bless you/God bless you/Gesundheit,
and the sneezer says Thank you
and apologizes for not burying it
in the crook of an elbow or a flannel sleeve.

They may not know the Ancients saw sneezes
as good omens, that something so powerful
and spontaneous must be caused by the gods.
They may not know about when Xenophon
exhorted his soldiers in battle, and one of them
sneezed on the word deliverance, and
they all bowed down before God at the sound.

But in this era of division and mistrust, xenophobia
and tribe, I cherish this sweet instinct
to wish grace and health in the life of a stranger.
Let us all turn now toward the light
and pray for another blessing from the gods.

 

Steve Straight’s books include The Almanac (Curbstone/Northwestern University Press, 2012) and The Water Carrier (Curbstone, 2002). He is professor of English and director of the poetry program at Manchester Community College, in Connecticut, US.

Into the Whipsaw – a poem by Ken Allan Dronsfield

Into the Whipsaw

In this world of heartless consumption
waste of human life to the whipsaw;
children shot dead while at recess
never did so little mean so much
then when two deer in a field
saw you and you saw them
nothing else mattered…
as neither blinked.
self-righteous take aim.
the pious obey at the sight
non-believers glare but afraid
Little flakes of shimmering light,
Admiring all in the wafting shade,
Stars peek and rave in the delight;
stellar was how a twilight was made,
As all eyes peer at the lightened cross.

 

Ken Allan Dronsfield is a disabled veteran, poet, and fabulist. He resides in Seminole Oklahoma, USA. He works full-time on his poetry, dabbling in digital art. Ken’s poem, “With Charcoal Black, VIII” was selected as the First Prize Winner in a recent major Nature Poetry Contest from Realistic Poetry International.

Hallowed Ground – a poem by J. Culain Fripp

Hallowed Ground

Traffic is heavy tonight,
phantom commuters
tramping unbent
blades of
frosted grass

Between my back fence
and the neighbor’s
distant wall

The motion sensor
is flashing its
lightship warning

Imminent collision
between seen and unseen

Hard, suburban landfall
and turbulent sea
of eternity

Determined, busy specters
translucent heads down
invisible briefcases
clutched at their sides

The silent crowd hurries
across our lawn
on errands of
irrelevant importance

I stand transfixed
in the witching hour
as the strobe of the
spectral radar
burns a relief
of this demonic traffic
on the vinyl parchment
of my home

Hastening to purgatory,
heads bent to their
wrist-watches, as they mark
their timeless journey

Rush hour ended,
the screech owl returns,
settling nervously
in the old pine

Blinking at one or two
tardy spirits,
as dawn breaks
on the suburban horizon

 

J. Culain Fripp is an Asheville, NC native who now lives in Geneva, Switzerland. Over 25 years dedicated to working, observing and reflecting on life in conflict and crisis-affected environments, internal and external, he has returned time and again to poetry as a journalistic practice. Most recently, his work has appeared in Rue Scribe. Instagram @Kalevala04

CRACKED VOICES – a poem by Rupert Loydell

CRACKED VOICES
i.m. Jay Ramsay

Always a mystic and dreamer.
Did you know that he had died?
If you have ever wondered
what it would be like to be
bereft and in mourning, now
is your chance to find out.

First it was a missing toolbox,
then Sister Wendy left us,
with Collings fuming about art.
Today Maria told me that Jay
has gone away for good.
Use the simple search function

to find your future and then
demolish thought. The tears
will not come, even though
neither Jane or Sarah knew,
despite a userfriendly interface.
To delete a comment just log in.

I know a little something
about dissent, have heard
stories about fracture, about how
a great silence filled all heaven.
Those of you who were there
will remember the plenary talk

and may have several volumes
on your shelf. There are words
for states of being that have no
equivalent outside poetic language.
If you are looking for information
look no further: time is also place,

we are just passing by. Fear is also
love, connections can be made
without agreeing with the thesis.
In his alien architecture I found
hope and occasional rays of light
to illuminate a midnight heaven.

© Rupert M Loydell

Writing and the Sacred and Why I Can’t Write This Essay – An essay by John Backman

Writing and the Sacred and Why I Can’t Write This Essay

I can’t write about writing and the sacred. It’ll take me two stories to tell you why. 

Story one: I’ve nearly finished the manuscript for my first book. Only the epilogue remains, and lumps of it stare at me from my laptop, which sits on a desk in the monastery I’m visiting. I’ve had breakfast and coffee, and it’s 9:00 and why not work on the epilogue? I just want to see if anything will flow. 

Something does. It gathers strength as the morning passes.

I want to take my usual 10:30 break, but the flow won’t let me. At noon I’m starving and they’re serving lunch and the aroma of cheese wafts into the room, but the words will not stop. I barely manage to run to the dining room for an egg before hastening back. 

Then the flow turns into a flood. My fingers keep typing words I don’t recognize and they rush pell-mell onto the screen. It’s like speaking in tongues that way, the arrival of language from somewhere else. The end of the session is the end of the book; the last glittering sentences tumble out at 3:00. The sacred being what it is, the sentences are perfect. 

* * *

Story two: Many years ago I built a business. Part of that business—the OCD part, which comes into everything I do—demanded that I keep timesheets down to the minute. After all, clients shouldn’t pay me when I’m not working, not even for bathroom breaks, right? The timesheets helped me draw clear lines between work and non-work, productive and unproductive. 

Then the Spirit nudged me to write about spirit. 

Timesheets were useless here, because writing about spirit demands flow, and how do you time flow? Snippets of morning prayer would show up in my journal, journal insights would inform blog posts, blog posts would blossom into articles would become a book the insights in which would feed my inner work in morning prayer. Productive? Unproductive? Who knew? 

Also, the flow didn’t stop. At first I wrote an occasional weekend or two. Then an hour a day. Now it’s spilled over into every morning, and the water keeps rising, obliterating every clear line I’ve ever drawn. 

* * *

You may think these stories really are about writing and the sacred. But they’re not, not really. By the end they’re only about the sacred. The sacred takes over the writing—not just the words, but the process; not just for one ecstatic day, but for a lifetime—and draws it gently, lovingly, irresistibly into itself. 

And that’s the point. Writing becomes part of the sacred like everything becomes part of the sacred. Including us. 

It’s like water. We can direct it for a while, with dams and levees and conduits, control the flow to serve our ends. Beyond that, though, the water will have its way—its subsuming, life-giving way.  

 

As a spiritual director and monastic associate, John Backman writes mostly noncreative nonfiction about contemplative spirituality and its relevance for today’s deepest issues. This includes a book (Why Can’t We Talk? Christian Wisdom on Dialogue as a Habit of the Heart) and articles in such places as Spirituality & Health.

Revisitation – a poem by Wil Michael Wrenn

Revisitation

It is a full moon night.

I drive my car halfway
across the levee of Enid Lake,
this large, man-made lake,
park the car, and get out
to stand on the levee.

The moonlight is a silver highway
stretching to the distant shore.
The cattle graze in the pasture
far below me, content in their world.

I look up to see a million stars in the sky,
jewels sparkling on a black canvas
endless in dimension, it seems.

I have been here many times before,
on nights just like this, in wonder
and awe of this place, this world
and its beauty. And now, as before,
I ask where it all came from
and what it all means. I wait in silence
for an answer, as I have so often before…

and I get none. Time passes…
and taking one last look at the majesty
and beauty all around, I get back in my car,
drive slowly across the long levee,

and head for home.

Wil Michael Wrenn is a poet/songwriter living in rural north Mississippi, USA. He has an MFA from Lindenwood University and is a songwriter/publisher member of ASCAP. His work has appeared in numerous places, and he has published a book of poems. His website can be found at:  http://www.michaelwrenn.com/